Post-mortem.

Hallelujah! SPM is over! Has been for almost 2 weeks now and nobody can imagine the amount of relief I feel. Eventhough it's been 2 weeks, I still feel super relived. Guess I've been under a lot of pressure for such a long time (guess its been 2 years through cheer and interact) 

Everyone talks about how life after SPM, where once your papers end, you're just so clueless about what you want to do. I partially agree. I recently took up an offered internship at an event management company and have been working there for a week now. I just finished working on a tournament for a client. 

To be honest, I didn't expect much out of this internship cause I'm only 17 and I've heard many stories about internships where interns don't do much but make coffee and photocopy documents for their colleagues but I've been up and about everyday and probably spend an average of 4 hours in the office! I've actually been on the field a lot and it's only been a week! Definitely a really good experience.

It feels like I'm doing IU day all over again only instead of having a time span of 1-2 months, I have a time span of 1 week! Not only that, but instead of spreading awareness/ doing it for charity, I'm working with actually clients and 'playing' with money. It's pretty scary since I constantly think about how the client would feel everytime I make a move, like what if I screw things up? But I thank god that it didn't rain until after the event and that the client was absolutely thrilled with the tournament. On the plus side, I judged for the cheerleading category and I even got a momento for it! (:

Unfortunately, I don't exactly have time to head out, spend time with family & friends let alone have some me time. But I still appreciate and feel so thankful to be blessed with an opportunity like this. 

Til the next time I have the time. ❤

Success.

Success.

The fact that I'm sitting for my SPM in 35 days scares the living shit out of me. I've had sleepless nights studying and restlessly doing exercises to ensure that I'm ready. But as I'm preparing myself for the worst, I stumble across questions that I can never figure out and it hits me. 

'Will I ever be fully prepared?'

I will admit, I always wanted straight A's, but the more I think about life after SPM the more I ask myself 

' Do you really need this?'

And by life after SPM, I don't mean the freedom, the time I get to go out guilt free or when I don't have to count down the days I have left. No. I'm talking about my career. Not a job, career. 

Many can't differentiate between a job and a career. A job is work you do for money. A career however, is something you dream and aspire to be and do. I'm driven by the temptation to succeed, to reach my goals. I used to but no longer do I agree that my future is going to be determined by results.

By getting straight A's, do I get my revenge? On who or what? Trees? If I have what it takes to get straight A's, it will take everything I've got. But if I give my all into getting straight A's, what more would I have or even have left after? Success and nothing less, but isn't failure the road to success? 

I know I'm not the studious type, and I've had numerous talks from my parents and teacher about how this is going to determine my future, but I now believe that my dreams and determination to achieve my dreams is what's going to make me be successful in life, not results on a dinky piece of paper. 

As good as straight A's sounds, I'm not going to let results stand in my way and tell me what I can or cannot do, I refuse to believe that how many A's you get is how well you do in the future, it's utter bullshit.

Future self, I hope you will remember to always chase your dreams and to continue to work to achieve them in order to be successful. I hope that no matter what you get for SPM, you will remember that God will always be there to help you and that your results won't reflect life after that. Continue to push and hopefully succeed in what you desire to do. I hope you will one day have your own success story to share and will aspire others to chase their dreams as well.

Good luck SPMers, may these 35 days be used wisely.

Malaysia Day.

So today happened actually because we got a tweet from Joe (after today, Joelie) asking to hang out since it's after trials, and we should catch up before drowning in books again. (I was sick at this time so I wasn't really in the convo) Anyway, our parents were all okay with plus since Joe got his license and car, it just made things easier.

This is Joelie, the driver and man for the day. I was pretty curious to what people thought though, either he must be a real ladies man to have so many chicks around him or he's just gay. (*cough* V-neckBrightBluePants&TightShirt*cough*)

These 2 pretty ladies are Marie (Mama Tanz) & MeiKuan (Bestfriend)

They were the girls of the day! ♥

I stayed over at Cait's place last night with Callie to watch 21JumpStreet so Joe picked me up first at Cait's. He actually sent me a text message saying,

' Get out, get out, get out of your bed, and come into my car instead' 

You cannot imagine how my reaction was cause it sounded so wrong on so many different levels.

Then we kinda got lost trying to pick up Marie and then headed to old town to pick up MeiKuan. 

Silly girl was wearing a jacket the WHOLE day cause she had tuition after. Hats off to her though cause even in a tee and shorts with my hair down, I was already sweating buckets!

Ended up going for Ice Kacang in old town! *\o/* Totally satisfied all our cravings. But after devouring our ice-y desserts, we headed off to State for Chatime where we talked and camwhored like crazy on Mama's iPad.

Quite Pai Seh cause we were cam whoring facing the 'bartenders' so they were actually taking turns to watch us!

Camwhored so much to the point we were doing it at GUARDIAN. Check out the dettol and hair-dye in the backgrounds!

Soon after though, we had to send MeiKuan back for tuition, so as Joelie drived, we talked and camwhored so more!

Ended up chilling at MeiKuan's tuition til her class started, so we were really just doing random stuff.

(This is how Joe got 'Joelie')

 Once MeiKuan's class started, we took off to OUG Parkson to buy some mushrooms and sent Marie back. Joe then sent me back but his car broke down at the traffic light to the turning into my housing area. 

I STARTED TO PANIC. I was just going 

' OMG OMG, WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO?!' 

And Joe was just like 

' Chill only, I kena before so just wait, we'll be fine' 

He was right, the engine started again after awhile. When we reached my house, he actually went past it, so I said nevermind, just do a 3-point-turn. And as he was doing so, his car engine just died. Like BOOM DIED. 

I had to wake my dad up to check out the car and apparently the engine looked over heated. When the contractor doing my backyard (My house is under partial renovation right now) came out to help open the hood, a whole lot of smoke just exploded out of the car! But after the contractor, my dad, granduncle and neighbour took a look at it, Joe called his dad and Papa Joelie came to Joe's rescue. 

All I can say is, I had a really good day with great friends and I thank god that Joe's car broke down in front of my house. 

Cause MeiKuan's fingers damn itchy backside.

Hair Chalking.

You might ask, wtf is this 'hair chalking'? Well refer to the picture above. (I took it off tumblr)

Hair chalking is basically colouring your hair with chalk. It's not permanent and it'll wash out instantly when in contact with water! I posted a profile picture on facebook after I chalked my hair about 2 weeks ago and since, had a lot of people asking me to teach them how to do it. 

Since trials are over, heck why not? But mind the pictures and their quality. My sister took them for me and I was too lazy to edit them, so just ignore and look past all the towels and what-nots of the backgrounds.

WARNING : 

Can stain clothes, hands (For a few hours) and gets messy.

You're going to need :

1. Pastel chalk

2. Hair brush

3. Water or hairspray

4. hair dryer or heating tool

5. Gloves (Optional)

Step 1 : Comb through your hair. Get rid of whatever knots you have cause you'll have a difficult time combing your hair after.

Step 2 : Pick a section of your hair that you want to chalk, and tie the rest of your hair in a pony tail to make sure nothing gets in the way with you and your chalking! (I suggest you do this in the bathroom over your sink)

Step 3 : Wet the section of hair you plan to chalk. What I normally do is I just stick my head under a running tap and soak that section. Spraying on the water isn't going to get good effects and it kinda damages your hair more. (Explination below)

Step 4 : Choose your chalk and 'colour' your hair. Just wedge the chalk and hair together between your fingers, get a good tension between the two and pull till the end. Repeat a couple of times. (Refer to the pictures)

You should get something like this after  few goes. (:

Step 5 : Dry the chalked section with a hair dryer or heating tool. This will set the chalk in your hair. (If you have dry hair like me, I recommend you use a hair dryer, refer below)

Step 6 : Comb through the back and you're done!

TADA! This was the profile picture I used. 

OKAY. So just a few tips and questions to answer.

1. What chalk should I use and where can I find them?

Use pastel chalk. Its more for arts a crafts to draw on paper and colour and it's definitely not the same as your usual black board chalk. The pigments of pastel chalk are smaller if I'm not mistaken. Just DO NOT USE NORMAL CHALK. I got mine at Daiso for RM5 though the quality isn't that good, but hey, you got to give and take for 18 colours for just RM5. You can also find them at Art friend (Gardens mall) but they're much more expensive. (If I remember correctly, about RM4 per stick) I think it's of a better quality, but again, you gotta give and take for 18 colours for RM5!

2. Does chalking my hair damage it? Would it stain my clothes?

This is solid proof. My comb is officially stained from hair chalking. Yes, it can stain your clothes especially when it's wet, so make sure you wear something you don't mind getting dirty. Also use an old comb you're willing to let get dirty and stained. Which is also why I said it's optional to wear gloves because it can also stain your hair for a day or a few hours. And it's sad to say but yes, hair chalking can damage your hair. Remember, pastel chalk was made for drawing and art, not for hair purposes. 

3. Is there a difference between using water and hairspray? And also a hair dryer and heating tool?

Yes, but VERY slight. It's really based more on self preference really. I prefer using water over hair spray because it's easier to get on and wash off. Also hair spray is stickier to work with and to comb after but on a positive note, it helps the chalk stay on longer. Also, I just prefer using a hair dryer instead of a heating tool because I have very coarse dry hair. I'm already damaging my hair with chalk, so I rather not damage it further with a heating tool, so I opt to use a hair dryer instead. It's also a cleaner option because I won't have to stain and clean the heating tool! :D

Anyway, that's basically it! :D

Hope you guys have fun trying this out, experiment with colours, and if you're doing this with a friend, braid each others hair cause it's really nice braided. (:

If you have any more questions, just comment and ask me!

Have fun! 

xx.